I have always been so absent and scattered minded.  I wonder when I will become totally vacant minded.  What remains in my memory are fragments of images, vague and elusive, buried deep in strata of my mind.  All I hear and see are cloudy reveries, blurry faces and murky voices.    Could it have anything to do with the places I have lived which scatter all over the world?  Could it be because the constant changes throughout my life that allow nothing to stay still in my mind?  I have attended four primary schools and two junior high schools.  Maybe the many people I encountered cause my struggle with faces and names.  On the other hand, could it be because people are all passersby in my life, too insignificant to capture my attention?  When I thought of those who left a dent in my memory in my youth, I can only think of very few.  My best girlfriend in first grade, a boy in my 5th grade class who was moving to the US about the same time I was moving abroad, two girls from my 7th grade class and three boys from my 9th grade class.  How did I remember those three boys?  I have to confess that I have always been too naïve to fall in love.  It was not because I was going through puberty but because of their nicknames. 

 

Whatever damages time might have brought to my memory, the future seems vivid.  I have finally found a way to fight against it.  Whatever future turns into past, in my verse, my memory perpetuates.

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